Its so quiet here. I miss the noise. The sound of laughter. I turn on the TV. But its not the same.

Im sorting through gifts. I received a lot from strangers this year. People that are not on my list. Mostly guys. The quiet ones. The ones you catch staring at you. (shudder) I have to buy gift cards now. I cant accept this stuff with reciprocating.

I spoke with Holly last night. I finally got her number. E-mail and IM is fine. But voice is better. She sounded happy. I wish I was with her. I didnt tell her that. I told her I was catching up on sleep. Which is true. I slept a lot last week. But Im still amazed at how tired I am.

It could be the food. Mom made me take a ton of it. Which is good. I havent had to go downstairs. Ive got it all stuffed in my minifridge. If only I had a bathroom. I wouldnt need to leave my room at all.

Im watching Marthas Apprentice. I had a dream about it last night. In the dream I was Martha. That was weird. I almost never dream that Im someone else. Anyway. I was disciplining the female candidates. Teaching them to obey. I think there was a secret dungeon involved.

I think Martha has a thing for Marcela. That episode when they had breakfast together. She openly flirted with her. "Marcela can I have a piece of your sugar bun." Yeah I can understand that. Id loved to have a piece of Marcelas sugar bun too. Marcelas reaction was a little weird though. She was literally gushing. "Martha wanted a taste of my sugar bun! It was such an intimate experience!"

Martha fired Marcela. But shes probably going hire her or help her later on. In her rejection letter Martha told her she wanted to talk to her further. I dont think Martha said that to anyone else. Also Marthas rejection letter to Sarah was odd too. "Dear Sarah Youre young appealing and attractive." I dont think she said that to anyone else. But I agree. Sarah was cute too. I wouldnt mind strapping her down. Smacking her big butt.