Yeah I did it. I went there Monday night. Not to confront her. No I just wanted to see her one last time. I called her up. Told her I still had some of her stuff. Clothing and a couple CDs. She sounded happy to hear from me. So I went. It was late by the time I got there. The little monkey was still up. She ran out to see me. Gave me one of her famous death grip hugs. She still likes me. So I guess they havent badmouthed me.

Kaya invited me inside. But I couldnt stay. I told her I had to get back. She informed me that Tessa was still at work. It really didnt matter to me. Tessa couldve been at her side for all I cared. But Kaya pressed on. She told me it would be hours before Tessa would be home. That kind of threw me. Why would she mention that? Did she want to fool around? I didnt bother asking. It wouldve just made things more complicated. We spoke briefly. Then we hugged goodbye. It was hard letting go. Her body felt incredible and she smelled amazing. The ride home was difficult. I stopped halfway and masturbated.

Its Saturday afternoon. Im sitting here all bundled up. Drinking hot chocolate spiked with cinnamon liqueur. Waiting for my brain to engage. I need to tear into this mountain of school work. Its been a rough week. Falling asleep in class. Falling asleep at work. I still have this cold/flu thingy. I feel like doing what I did yesterday. Swigging some Nyquil and conking out. But Ive got work to do. Problems to solve.

Im not sure what to do about Angie. Her project is done. She doesnt need me anymore. But she still hangs around. She shows up after 7pm. Thats when everyone goes home. She brings me coffee. Talks to me. Flirts with me.

She took me out to dinner Thursday. Confided that her marriage was in trouble. She and her husband have separated. The spark is gone. Theyre looking at divorce. She says she feels lonely. Yeah. I know what that feels like.