Well the week is finally over. I didnt think Id make it. I went crazy Monday afternoon. Did a full hour of bootcamp. Four 15 minute cycles. Ive never done that before. All at once like that. Not even when I was healthy. But now Im back to my regular routine. Two 10 minute cycles in the morning. One 10 minute cycle at night. Last months bout of pneumonia. It really fucked me. All that time in bed. It melted my body. But Im finally regaining some of the strength I lost.

Its the weekend now. The house is empty. Everyone is with their boyfriends. Or off skiing. Im here waiting for Holly. Shes going to sleep over. Im hoping to get massaged again. She did that last Sunday. She straddled my butt. Removed my top. Gave me a lovely massage.

I was hoping she would flatten herself on top of me. Kaya used to do that all the time. She would lie on top of me after massages. I loved it when she laughed. It caused her body to move. Like she was riding my ass. Sometimes she would strap on. Ride my ass for real. Then fall asleep on top of me. I loved the warmth of her body.

Im watching last weeks Greys Anatomy. Izzie is in the bathroom arguing with George. Shes wearing her Hello Kitty panties. Meredith walks in looking for tampons. Izzie tells Meredith that shes not riding in the same car as George. Meredith looks at her and tells her:

"Unless you're going like that, you're not riding with me either."

I find that interesting. Meredith wont give Izzie a ride unless Izzie is clad only in Hello Kitty underwear.