I miss Kaya. I went there today. Staked out their place. I was desperate. I just wanted to see her again. I know. Im stupid to be writing about her. Stupid to be thinking about her. But I cant help myself. I really do miss her. She was more than just sex. She was my friend. I miss talking to her.

Like after Jenna told me her dog sex story. I wanted to tell someone. Or like today after Angie molested me. Normally I would phone up Kaya. Or more likely I would go to her. Just like I went to her today. But I know that was the wrong thing to do. I dont have that luxury anymore. We are not together anymore. I have to find someone else.

I went into work today. A favor to Angie. She needed a slideshow. So Im at my desk doing that. She comes in. Wraps her arms around me from behind. Hugs me. Kisses my ear hello. Im a little startled. But I smell alcohol on her breath. So I figure shes a little impaired.

She doesnt let go of me. Her arm is right above my boobs. Her face is next to mine. Looking at the slideshow. She moves forward. Points to the screen. Her arm drops across my boobs. Shes telling me all sorts of stuff. Im trying to remember it all. Then she pulls back. Notices her arm is across my boobs. She says oops. Comments on the firmness of my tits. Then she playfully squeezes them. Laughs and hugs me again. Im not sure how to react. It happens so fast. I just smile.

Angie is hot. Ive masturbating to her for weeks. But I havent done anything. Because shes married. What she did today was sexual harrassment. Not to mention. She came to work drunk. If a guy did that. Lets say Matt. Hes a nice guy. But if he did that to me. I would definitely report it.

Thats why I went to see Kaya. I feel comfortable talking to her about stuff like that. It just sucks that she wasnt there. But then again maybe it was for the best. Ive been holding onto her. Even though I keep saying its over. I keep going back. I need to stop that.