Kaya and Mati were bathing. They had gotten sticky with ice cream. I went to check on them. But they werent alone. Tessa was with them. What the fuck? What was she doing there. I mean its her apartment and all. But what the fuck? Thats the way it was the entire day. Tessa was overly affectionate. Directing all of her charm towards Mati. Trying to position herself. That conniving bitch.

Kaya must have told her about me. About how Ive been restrained towards Mati. Hey I dont have anything against kids. Especially sweet little Mati. But the child is five years old. Im not going to pick her up everytime she wants. Shes too old for that. She needs to grow up. Shes going to be starting school soon. Coddling her will only make it harder.

It all got to be too much. I was consumed with jealousy. I had to get out of there. I wanted to go home. But it was too late. The house would be dark by the time I got there. So I decided to come here. I told Kaya that I had to go. She didnt stop me. Or question why. That was kind of harsh. I mean things were strained all day. But I thought she would show some concern.

I wish I could stay here. Lizzy is away at camp. I have her bed all to myself. Unfortunately I cant stay. I left my books at home.