My last entry was filled with anger. Yes I confess. Im an angry girl now.

Ive been angry for several weeks. It started at the hospital. The very first day. They rushed me there. Hooked me up. Then they left. It pissed me off. I had a fever of 100.8 degrees. I was burning up. The nurses didnt give a shit. Stupid bitches. They thought I was an addict. A cokehead. (Let me set the record straight: I have never done coke heroin crack or meth)

An hour later the bitches iced me. My fever had spiked to 106.2 degrees. But I didnt know that at the time. Because I didnt feel hot. Actually I felt good. Real good. Also real light. Like I was floating. Ethereal. Very dreamlike. But they shocked me with ice. So I got pissed. I cussed them out. Slapped them away. Told them to fuck off. They didnt like that very much. But hey it wasnt my fault. I was out of it. In a state of delirium. I had no control over my actions.

But even after they transferred me. I was still pissed. Not at the nurses. These nurses were nicer than the other ones. Especially nurse Julie. And nurse Ellen. They were cool babes. No I was pissed at the asswipe doctors. Fucking perverts. They kept me topless longer than necessary. Laughing and joking with the interns. It made me sick. I wanted to slice their balls off.

The interns didnt know shit. They kept sticking me. Trying to find my veins. My poor arms were turned into pincushions. But I didnt say anything. Because the interns were hot. A petite asian. A tall blonde. They were masturbation material. They still are.

Fucking doctors. They wouldnt let me leave. I was stable. Feeling good. I wanted to leave. But fuckers kept me there. It pissed me off. They were fucking with my future. Causing me to miss more classes.

But Im really pissed at myself. I dont understand how I got into this. Its so fucking stupid.

I need to masturbate.