Its been a fucked up week. Long days. Cold nights. Wishing Kaya was here. Aching for her warm body. Ive missed that this week. Normally Im ok. I can wait until the weekend. This week was different. Especially the nights. Tossing and turning. Unable to sleep. Feet were like blocks of ice. No matter how many socks. Or layers of blankets. I couldnt get them warm. My hands are fucked too. Especially my right hand. I think I have arthritis. Or maybe Ive been frigging too much. The pain is intense. It shoots into my wrist. So Ive been downing the Tylenol. But it really hasnt helped much.

Movement is limited. Its frustrating. Ive been so fucking horny. Jenna was showing us some online erotica yesterday. It was hot stuff. So I excused myself. Went upstairs to frig. But I couldnt. It was too damn painful. So I tried lefty. But it was no good. My left hand has no rhythm. It takes too long. Then it cramps up. By then the desire is gone. So I was left unsatisfied.

I can hardly wait. Just another half hour. Then Im on my way. Heavy duty painkillers and a warm body. Thats all I want.