The only reason Im awake is Lizzy. She moves alot when she sleeps. This morning she was on top of me. Drooling on my hair. Trapping my boobs with her arm. She had her leg up over my crotch. The weight of it pressing down hard. Making me want to pee. But at the same time making me aroused. Frightening thought.

Lizzys best friend Maria is returning Friday. They talked on the phone all last night. Leaving me to talk to the walls. I should have gone with Kaya. She went over to Paulines after she got off work. They got naked and chilled in the pool. That wouldve felt so damn good. I really like the way Pauline gives massages. Shes trying to teach Kaya to do it. But Kaya is a little heavy handed at times. She likes to punish the body into relaxing. I thought my spleen had exploded the other day.