Breakup with Julie is imminent. We just arent socially compatible. Sure she knows how to eat pussy. But that doesnt offset the craziness. I should have ended it weeks ago. We dont mesh. We never really did. She needs someone subservient.

We spoke Friday. She wanted to take me to dinner. But Heidi was here. I couldnt just bail on her. Even though she showed up unannounced and uninvited. I felt obligated to watch her. So I told Julie I couldnt make it. I informed her I had a friend visiting. She said that was fine. So we made plans for Saturday night.

Saturday night. The night was fucked from the beginning. She was pissed at me. I think I was ten minutes late. I called to let her know. But that wasnt good enough. She kept bitching. Ripping on the poor server guy. It was so embarrassing. I apologized to the guy. Then I told her I was leaving. She followed me out of the restaurant. Yelling at me. I couldnt believe it was happening.

Yesterday she left me several messages. I think she wanted to make me jealous. I heard a sexy voice in the background. Giggling and moaning in each message. Calling out to Julie. It was funny. Meanwhile Julie is telling me that she wants to see me. But she has a friend over. So she cant make it right away. She keeps postponing with each message. Finally I call her back. Apologize that I hadnt responded to her messages. Explaining that I had been asleep all day. That must have pissed her off. She hasnt called today.

The weekend with Heidi was wonderful. Crystal agreed to let her stay in my room. We spent Friday night watching movies with Bridget. Falling asleep downstairs in the living room. Saturday afternoon we went to the beach. Rubbed sunblock over each other. She got me so hot. I had to go into the water to cool off. She looked absolutely yummy in that bikini. Saturday night after the disastrous dinner she was already asleep. Sprawled across my bed. Her thin sleepshirt clinging to her body. I knelt by the bed. Watched her as she slept.

Theres just something about her. Its not love. Im not in love with her. Its lust. Her face. Her tight budding body. The way she moves. It drives me crazy with lust. I desperately wanted to wake her. To kiss her. To lick every inch of her body. It was so tempting. I dont think she would have minded. Not after the time we had at the beach. Rubbing that sunblock into each others thighs. But as usual I didnt do anything. Because its wrong. Its illegal.