Kaylie was at work today. That woman doesnt have a life. Shes a workaholic. I went in to use the gym. Saw her in the conference room. Papers scattered all around. Scribbles on the whiteboard. No else in her department was in. Only her. She was the only one there. Is this what she does for fun? Doesnt she have friends? Family? It seems so sad.

I feel bad for staring at her body. It was several weeks ago. But I still feel guilty. I never should have stared. Staring once or twice was ok. But not continuously like I did. That was overkill. She was bound to notice. And she did. She either thought I was a freak. Or she thought I was interested. Maybe she thought I wanted to be friends. So she stared and smiled. What did I do? I started ignoring her. Avoiding contact. I feel so bad. She seems so lonely. What if she was just wanted a friend. I need closure on this. I need to approach her. Tell her Im sorry about staring. Then take it from there. I cant keep avoiding her.

Plus I miss going to the gym during the week. It sounds crazy. But I miss working out. Ive become addicted. These past few weeks have been murder. All because I dont want to face her. I need to grow up. Be a woman. Take responsibility.

Yeah thats easy to write. But will I do it? I dont know. I need a beer.