It was dangerous. I knew that. But did I avert? Noooo. Not me. I went straight ahead. Aloof. Without a plan. Why? Because Im stupid like that.

Luckily things didnt go bad. The girls were very understanding. But they know I lied. Especially Hanna. I dont want to fuck up things with her. She knows me so well.

I need to be careful. Everything is out in the open. I shouldnt be frightened. I shouldnt tell lies.

Kaya is out. Im here at her place. It smells of peppermint. My mouth is of chocolate. We had chocolate mints. On top of chocolate sauce. I painted her. She was my gingerhouse. First in the kitchen. Deliberate. Then in the shower. Not so deliberate. All over her body. Up against the wall. My neck craned. Up to her lips. First softly. Then wildly. She shuddered loudly. Her knees weak. Suffocating me. I kept lapping the goodness. The salti-sweetness.

Later after the shower. After sleep. She woke me with kisses. Fed me ice cold grapes. They tasted delicious.

Im still here. I should be home. I should be reviewing. Im bad. Im stupid.

Im nervous. Thats my excuse. No. I just needed a fucking break.