Yeah Im still here. I feel like sleeping through Thanksgiving. My body is hurting. Too much school. Too much work. I end up feeling deprived. So I go out and party. But that doesnt leave much time for sleep. So I end up sleeping weekends and holidays. Its a vicious cycle.

But I cant sleep through Thanksgiving. I need to go home. I miss mom and dad. I miss Lizzy. I even miss Hanna. I also miss Kaya. I wanted to see her. But she didnt invite me. Its probably because I declined on Halloween. I knew I should have gone. Oh well its not the end of the world.

Im drinking lemon tea. Heidi made it for me. Sweet little Heidi. She and Heather are gone. They left a few hours ago. I took Heidi shopping yesterday. We came home and talked about boobs. She showed me hers. I showed her mine. Then I let her feel me up. She wanted to compare. Then we talked about sex. It was all harmless. Very clinical. She just had some questions.

My back was in knots. So she rubbed some Vicks on it. Her tiny hands felt really nice. Then she slept up here. She said the couch downstairs was too lumpy. We talked some more. Then we fell asleep. I had a dream about her. We were in a big house. Going from room to room. Making out in secret. Because Heather was chasing us. Accusing me of molesting her baby sister.

Thats when I woke up. Heidi was asleep on top of me. Her head on my shoulder. Her arm across my boobs. I quickly got out from under her. It was a little after 3am. I went to the bathroom. Washed my face with hot water. Then I masturbated. I know Heidi only just turned fifteen. But that dream got me all hot. I came back up here. Slept on my little couch.

Now I need to get off my tush. Make the long drive home. Or I could wait until morning. Then drive Lena to the airport. Yeah that sounds better. That way I can watch Top Model tonight.